I'm still young and trying to figure things out. I'll make mistakes and I'll hopefully learn some lessons, but that's just life. I'm not going to be fake, I know I'm not perfect. I'm an enigma, a puzzle that can't be solved, a maze you'll never find your way out of, but isn't that what makes me interesting? Get to know me, you might just end up liking what you see. Although I'm still figuring out my life, there is one thing that's for sure, as luck would have it, I've found the one. I love you Sodana Lam.
-I'm Vietnamese/Chinese
-19 years I've been on this earth
February 7th
2:15 PM

Loving intentions but terrible delivery.

I may not know how to say things gently but I hope you girls know I’m only thinking of your best interest at heart. I can never stand seeing a girl mistreated.

Talk about reminiscing through all the friendships I’ve gone through x__x

All of this came to mind when I heard this song. What do you guys think of the lyrics?

It’s called I’ll Walk You Home by AM Kidd

Tell me why I always hear you questioning
How much you feel you’re worth
And why someone like you
Deserves to feel the burn

And you ask that every time he lets you down
But it’s never quite enough for you to stand and walk out
But I get it, you’re scared to be the one that gives up
So you let it happen and you keep your lips shut
Cause you feel like maybe he’ll change
But is he worth the time? Is he worth the wait?

If you’ve answered “I don’t know” then you’ve figured it out
It’s better to let it go than watching it fall down
It ain’t easy being strong but you should keep in mind what’s better for yourself
And you’re not super woman, it’s okay to call for help

Somebody good deserves somebody that’s good, too
You’re not alone so someone out there will find you
But that’s something that comes along on its own
For the mean time, I’ll be here to walk you home

Tell me why you fuckin with him
When he ain’t fuckin with you
Don’t waste your love on him
When he ain’t got no love for you
someone else can hold it down and do it right
You deserve to be in front but he pushes you to the side

Tell me why you fuckin with him
When he ain’t fuckin with you
Don’t waste your love on him
when he ain’t got no love for you
someone else can make you feel you’re worth the time
When you leave it might be dark outside
Let me walk you home

Now I know you had a lot of sleepless nights
Always tossing back and forth trying to make things right
When you look into the mirror you don’t even recognize who you are
You just want to go back, back to the start

So you tell him and he says you’re over thinking
So nothing makes a difference
And then he says he’ll fix it
So you sit there with your patience
Cause you’re waiting for someone to pull their weight
A relationship is always supposed to be give and take
But he’s taking. Taking every ounce of hope you give to him
He throws it back and claims you’re not understanding and listening
And hits you with every word he knows to break you down with
And then he asks why you’re quiet when around him

So you’re stuck ‘cause you’re staying for the history
And all the time and effort you put into it so willingly
But now, I hope you take a different road
And I’ll be there to keep you safe and walk you home

I wish you guys could see it through my eyes, how you are holding onto something that is mediocre compared to how someone better could treat you.

February 24th
11:40 PM
Via

♚ crowned: You’ve stripped me away from my insecurities, though some still...

crownq:

You’ve stripped me away from my insecurities, though some still linger. You’ve painted pictures of everlasting love, promised that we would get there someday some way. Not only have you built a sturdy mansion for yourself in my heart, you’ve built a better one for me in yours. You planted sunflowers, my favorite, in the front yard, and a pond filled with all different types of living organisms in the backyard. You constantly remind me that I can do better, education-wise. You always encourage me to keep reaching because I’m more than capable; I just need to exert the effort to do so. You’ve been a blessing in my life. Keep building, keep painting, keep encouraging.

the perfect boyfriend, they exist. I’ve found mine like she’s found hers :3

February 19th
7:37 PM
Via
Like when I kiss you when you’re sleepy and you have a 2 second delay before you make that kissy face/sound back LMFAO

Like when I kiss you when you’re sleepy and you have a 2 second delay before you make that kissy face/sound back LMFAO

February 14th
11:01 PM
Via
just because it’s kind of cute

just because it’s kind of cute

January 29th
1:58 AM

Needs improvement.

I realize there are so many things I need to improve on. I don’t want a single ounce of self-loathing in me. I need to stop being so bitter about the past. I need to stop being a quitter. Whenever problems arise I go running in the other direction, in relationships, in friendships, in everything. I always want to quit on something before it quits on me. My procrastination derives from my fear of failure, I purposely sabotage things in order to have excuses as to why, instead of accepting that I failed, that I did not perfectly accomplish something. I never wanted to give my heart away because guys could never break something they didn’t have. All my failed friendships made me a cynical woman. I realize I’m very cynical about friends, close ones. Girls can get paranoid, competitive, and hurtful so I put up a wall, hoping that it would protect me but people always seem to get in.

I need to remember, I’m beautiful, the past is the past, and shit happens I need to face it. I should always try my best and if I can’t do something as perfectly as I want, I will try harder to improve it until it meets my standards. There will always be good people out there for me to meet, I already know a few, the few I know have true good intentions, who are real and have no heinous personality hidden behind some mask they wear in front of me or the public.

Why the fuck am I airing out my dirty laundry, I have no idea. I guess because I was inspired by Debbie’s video and wanted to..to..show my authenticity, my flaws, my fears, etc.

January 23rd
10:56 PM
Via
timothydelaghetto:


A donor heart beating in a mechanical system which keeps it warm, oxygenated, with nutrient enriched blood pumping through.

this is real? this isn’t real… is this real? lol

reblogging for Thao, I remember her liking a picture of this. ( :

timothydelaghetto:

A donor heart beating in a mechanical system which keeps it warm, oxygenated, with nutrient enriched blood pumping through.

this is real? this isn’t real… is this real? lol

reblogging for Thao, I remember her liking a picture of this. ( :

December 16th
2:25 AM

Just got pearls for my nails!! ^__^

October 20th
2:32 AM

To my dearest pumpkin: Your niche in my heart

I won’t always need you to do something for me to be useful, I won’t need you to help me with things, and I won’t always need you to physically do anything for me. What I need from you, is to know that you are okay. I need to know that YOU KNOW I’m always here. I need you to know that, you don’t always need to do things for me. You already have this soft spot in my heart and you’ll always remain there. What I need is for you to know that you’re loved, wanted, worth more than you can imagine, never overbearing and more. You’re just wonderful. You’re caring, you’re sweet, you’re compassionate, you’re understanding, you’re selfless, and more. You are a wonderful human being, and you are loved.

With Love,

Your Watermelon Princess

September 28th
12:25 PM
Via
"Be careful to whom you give your heart to because when you give your heart to someone, you’re not only giving that person the right to love you but also the power to hurt you."
—  (via eletheowl)
September 21st
5:02 AM

AM Kidd - Electric Heart

AM Kidd Verse 1]

Doctor, doctor. Pardon me but..

Do you feel my electric heart beat?

I need a jumpstart, she’s what I need

Here’s the symptoms, this is what I mean

I see flashes of dots and circles

I look up and the sky is purple

I’m like a car with frozen gears

I can’t move, is it just cold in here?

but when she’s around I feel much better

she raises my power levels

All I need is the scent of her perfume

a few seconds later inside my heart booms

I’m Back, I feel so human again

So Doctor, what can you prescribe me then?

When she’s the one thing that’ll give me that spark

To power my electric heart

[Chorus]

My Electric

My Electric

My Electric Heart

My Electric

My Electric

My Electric Heart

(2x)

[AM Kidd Verse 2]

So doc, any meds you can give me?

For feelin’ faint, abnormally dizzy

blue, yellow, and red, they all look the same

my joints are locked but when I see her face

it gets warmer. and my siccness is cured

high volts surge like time square in New York

Passes through me like the windy Bay shores

Doc, can you figure out what’s going on?

the gears in my heart they start to roll

the rush of the blood then starts to flow

electricity pumps and sparks my soul

the weight falls down like December Snow

I’m alive, I feel so human again

So doctor, what can you prescribe me then?

When she’s the one thing that’ll give me that spark

to power my electric heart

[Chorus]

My Electric

My Electric

My Electric Heart

My Electric

My Electric

My Electric Heart

(2x)

[AM Kidd Verse 3]

Doctor, doctor. Pardon me, but

do you feel my electric heart beat?

I need a jumpstart, she’s what I need

here’s the symptoms, this is what I mean

my breath is short, chills at night but

when she’s here I feel alright but

when she’s not I feel unhealthy

what kind of drugs in the world can help me when

Electricty sparks when I hear her

and the cure seems so much clearer

and the voltage breaks through the meters

imagine the push everytime that I’m near her

I feel so human again

so Doctor, what can you prescribe me then?

when she’s the one thing that’ll give me that spark

to power my electric heart

[Chorus]

My Electric

My Electric

My Electric Heart

My Electric

My Electric

My Electric Heart

(2x) 

12:55 AM

Hole In My Heart

by AM Kidd

AM Kidd - Hole in My Heart

[Verse 1]

It’s always later, “uh huh”, “okay, whatever”

as if this time apart between us will make it better

I’m waiting for your call in the late hours of the night

hopin’ you come around, give in and make it right

and when I say a thing you can’t help but explode

why is it when we talk you switch to defensive mode?

we talk about change but the moments yet to come

'cause when we hit the bottom, we're quick to leave and run

All I want is Love, baby, help us make us grow

we connect on levels that nobody else knows

you lift me to my highest and you bring me to my lows

but that’s just hard proof that we grew to be so close

I’m working every day trynna figure how to please you

I even wrote this song hopin’ maybe it’ll reach you

but for now, I sit here and wait for your call

grabbin’ on my chest and leanin’ against the wall

[Chorus]

There’s a hole in my Heart (8x)

[Verse 2]

And this song ain’t a song to attack you

it isn’t all your fault, girl I know that I’m a handful

I could be sensitive, I could have my days

But what’s a relationship without a little pain?

At times I drive you crazy, theres times when I’m slow

we tear eachother down, rebuild and then we grow

On a rollercoaster of emotions, going through the motions

Crash and then burn, then we laugh and then learn

We ain’t perfect, and I could feel it in my heart

that you’re worth it, and I felt it from the start

from the first kiss, so every second you don’t call

I feel it hurtin’, I know for certain that I’m

deeply into you

If you’re gone one moment, I’m missing you

You’re the walking definition of Beautiful

and when I’m with you I’m invincible 

Chorus 8x

Bridge:

I let my guard down one more time for you

one more time for you

one more time for you 2x

September 19th
11:30 PM
Via
"Even if you love with your entire heart, every fiber of your being, with so much passion that it hurts to think about it, you need to forget what you want and remember what you deserve."
—  (via iamnocturnal)
September 18th
1:28 PM
Via
That was my heart for the past 4-6 years until now, I’m trying to let go of that tight leash I’ve always had on my heart.

That was my heart for the past 4-6 years until now, I’m trying to let go of that tight leash I’ve always had on my heart.

My best friend texted me, he asked if I looked nice right now. I told him no, and he said to get ready so I look good, not to him, but to myself. Only text him back If I felt happy with how I looked. This confused me but I didn't ask questions. I just got ready, and finally after an hour or two, I told him I felt happy with how I looked, sort of. The door rang about 10 minutes later, and my friends told me to come with them to the park. This confused me but I didn't ask questions, I was bored anyways. We walked to the park, it wasn't that far, and they said to sit on the swing set. I didn't really like the swings at this park because it was the very place my first love broke up with me & shattered my heart. Just sitting on the swing hurt a bit, I went into silence at the memories. Suddenly, I was blindfolded. When my friends took it off, there he was. The boy who told me to get ready, I liked this boy, he was my best friend. He handed me a rose and got down on his knee. "I know this is one of your least favorite places. I also know you stopped believing in love after 2 shots to the chest. And you don't like change. But this is good change, I think. I want to change this swingset from the place where you closed your door to love to the place where it just began. I've sat by & watched you get hurt long enough. You're beautiful, smart, talented, sweet, funny. And impatient. So, I won't drag this out. I love you, & I'd like to be your boyfriend...Will you go out with me?" This boy was my 3rd love, he made me feel special. It's been 5 long years, and just today, he said those exact words. To propose.

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this made me cry. bcuz its just so damn cute. 

STOP ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

omg

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 awww that’s too sweet

:)

aaaaaaawwwww <33333

Awh.I wish this would happen to me.

THAT IS SO SWEET! 

 omg awwwwhhh

this is so sweet

AWWWHHHHH.

AWWWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEE

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Things like this always hit my soft spot. If I could, I’d do something like this for the girl I liked/loved. 

OMG..he mended my heart too<3 LOLOL

September 14th
10:45 PM

All I wanted to do was talk to you

I only get hurt so easily because that’s just how much I care. Like I’ve learned in my communication studies class, no one can make you do anything unless you allow them to, and I open up my heart to you, so I allowed you to hurt me and make me cry but I’m happy when I talk to you so I take the good with the bad. When I’m tired, in pain, all I really want to do is talk to you because it makes me happy. That’s why it hurts all the more when I feel like you’re neglecting me.