Stuck in the past
it’s difficult to try and improve yourself when everyone in your family has a shared mentality about dealing with problems. I am trying to learn not to dwell on the past but my family doesn’t exactly set a great example. My family has been hit with hurdle after hurdle this year, with family illnesses, financial troubles, car accidents, and internal struggles. At one point we were going to have to move to another state or a shady neighborhood (or should I say shadier neighborhood). One thing after another took a toll on morale for this family. I did being to worry and stress out until I started getting panic attacks and then my grades started to drop from my usual A’s. Now that I’m at the end of the semester and I look back, I think I held it together pretty well because mentally, I was not stable. The stress and uncertainty took a toll. Thankfully, I was able to maintain my A’s to the end of the semester. What have I learned from all of this and my family’s failure to cope with obstacles? I have learned that doing anything that doesn’t help is useless. The arguing back and forth, the constant talking about what if and what should have been, the pointing of fingers, all of that is utterly useless. At times I feel as though apathy is the best policy.